We found out about our first pregnancy in October.....just 2 months after the death of my husband's mother who had Alzheimer's and we had cared for in our home. After this loss, finding out we were pregnant brought great joy to our hearts.
Everything seemed to be going great with the pregnancy. We went for our first ultrasound,saw the heart beat and was overjoyed. We waited another month and went for a 12 week ultrasound where we saw the baby moving and waving its arms. WOW! This was an awesome experience.
In December of 2005 we went for out 3rd appt. and to possibly find out the sex of our baby. To our horror the doctor could not find a heart beat! We were devasated. It was Christmas time and our world had crumbled. I had never experienced such disappointment and heart break in my entire life.
There were so many questions.....why? how? was it my fault? would I ever get over this?

I had a D&C the next morning and all the doctor could tell us was to wait 2 months and try again. He said miscarriage in first pregnancies were common and there was most likely not a problem with me.

So, with broken hearts we went home and played the waiting game.